Ryan's grandpa is dieing. He has been sick with Alzheimer's for the past 2.5 years. It's interesting because we were planning his 80th birthday when they realized he wasn't doing well. I say interesting because in 2004 we were planning my grandpa's 80th birthday party when he had a stroke, out of no where, and was in the hospital for a couple weeks, was transferred to a care facility and died a couple days later. I was there at the hospital with my grandpa after and it was a good time for my family and extended family to spend that time together. He wasn't conscious but I felt like it was a good experience for the family.
It's been such a different experience with Ryan's grandpa. He went into this care facility and we haven't gone to see him at all. He came to a Christmas party a year ago, but I haven't seen him since. My great grandparents were in a facility when my great grandma got alzeimers. I remember visiting her and my mom usually had to bring her back to the room. It was such a different experience for me.
I feel like I've dealt with death a few times throughout my life. I've had friends die, friends parents, grandparents, great grand parents, and uncles. I want to be as involved as I can because I miss them but this standing off is new to me. I am going tomorrow to say good bye to his grandpa. He is one of the most kind hearted amazing men I've known. I have loved him as a grandpa from the very beginning. I will miss him terribly and I just want to have my opportunity to say goodbye to him properly, when he is still here with us. I feel like I missed out on that opportunity with my own grandpa being he wasn't really there after the stroke. I want to do it this time.
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